Thinking of you

Today I’m thinking about you, it’s incredible what a few days of not seeing you or not talking to you on a regular basis are doing to me. Sometimes is hard to differentiate if it is an addiction to you or if it is love what drives this sudden sadness. For sure I know I miss you. I still think is better this way, but today I’m not so sure. Is one of those days where I feel as though everything is trying to remind me of you, and I ask myself, are you really moving on? Are you really moving away from me? Is this really it?

I’ve met someone… He shares your name and age, and only by two days he missed out on sharing my birthday as well. Is this some kind of sign? Is the universe trying to tell me something? I mean we talked! Ok I talked. And it felt good, it felt right! It felt like we finally were going to give each other the time we needed, it only took a year to have that conversation, something really major and hurtful had to happened for us to finally put the cards on the table. And now that it seems like you are finally giving me the space I wanted and that finally you are taking yours I miss you! I can’t stop thinking about what the future would be without you… Is just one of those days.

This song: India Arie - These Eyes Lyrics, of her Album “Testimony Vol.1” fell in my hands about a year ago, and even though the whole album had a deep impact on what I was going through with you, this song was the first and most accurate explanation I could give you about the way I was feeling, somehow a little bit of the way I’m feeling today. A friend of mine told me, the day you can listen to this entire album without shedding a single tear, you’ll know your heart has healed… I’m still working on it.